January 6: One leaf

Allow the current to take you.

Time crunch. Missteps. Eye rolls. Deadlines (there's a reason they call them that...connections to nowhere that have no real bearing on who we are as people or employees) Busy week. Little time. Short fuses. Worry. Debt. Sick kids.You know the drill parents.

Can I possibly do anymore to bring us over the next hill?

Dads know what I mean--so many pressures to be a dad, to be the right kind of dad, not to mention being a man and the right kind or type of man at that. I still haven't figured that one out yet. Providing, caring, defending--just too many verbs and not enough time in the day to do it all and still feel good about yourself. Be that leaf, bobbing along, resting on the crest of a wave, riding out the uncertainty. Sometimes those feelings above are just reminders of how much you do and how much you want to accomplish for yourself and your family--but that fear embedded there is an ally, not a problem. It is there, built in, to guide you along and let you know that the responsibilites are great, but that you are not in it alon.. There are other dads out here with you, amazing raw-foodie mommies, brilliant Italian cooks, insightful funny children, old friends, charmingly delicious Starshine boys and a host of others to let you know that what you are doing has value. You have value and sometimes when you are caught up in all that flotsam and jetsam you need to go with that current, let it give you a way rather than trying to force one so desperately. Allow clarity and peace to emerge from giving yourself over to the freedom of something more calming and relaxing than fighting all the time.
Sometimes it is simply more important to go with that current, feel the breeze and watch the sky racing by.

Zen Daddy